The Savage Inside

I recently returned from a week getaway tucked into the woods of Alabama and i feel more refreshed then I ever have. I came to a realization that I was not born for the white collar life. That may seem weird or odd to you seeing how i spent a week in the backwoods and you were probably thinking I was talking about not being cut out for country life but this obviously is not the case. I got a chance to relax and meditate on things and life and general and I feel I am meant for more. Not just me though; Cory DLG in the same light as well and that is why we are pushing so hard to make Nerd Thug Radio work, grow and stick. We have tried a many different non-white collar jobs on a path to following our dream from my days as a poker dealer to DLG opening a small comic shop. We weren't meant to be behind a computer desk 8 hours a day pushing paper and pencils for someone else. We want to grow this creation of ours NTR into something big! We have recently added a couple bloggers to the fam...

I have longed been told that I am different and the world is normal and ever since I have had trouble fitting in. Yet, as I pace around my room high on things that I have consumed, my eyes wide like silver dollars and my teeth running circles around my collar. My hands can’t help but stay into motion like the waves in the ocean. I have come to realize I am the normal one and the world is different. It needs to fit into me because when I’m like this I’m in my own world. And now I am spun and the world is crashing down and, and I think I am done. Reality is slapping me in the face and I’ve had an epiphany. I am different and I can’t escape it but I won’t conform or change. Keep on keeping on is exactly my plan I won’t deter from it for no woman or no man. I don’t like sitting still and my legs won’t allow it the feeling of my heart almost exploding has me captivated and consumed. Two or three lines at a time I am going to change the world, and I swear to God I will find myself out.

There are many moving parts in this world and in one's life as well and how you arrange them helps mold and create who you are. I always dreamed of being someone. I never wanted my end of days to come with the realization that I never made my mark. I didn't just want to be another guy in history. The struggle with that thinking sometimes corrupts the mind and hides who you really are. Who am I really...the most important title I own is of a father and then a husband yet in my struggles of wanting to be more than the mid-level manager of a tool company that I am I tend to forget that. I am also one integral part of Nerd Thug Radio who yearns to grow and earn some token of famousness and I try and create this persona of Joey Savage when really I'm just Joseph Kay. The decision will have to be made one day which is more important? Joey Savage the wannabe radio personality or Joseph Kay the family man. At times I think I need more and I need to do more to grow that Joey Savage ...